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sunshine_maiden) wrote2012-11-08 08:10 pm
sunshine_maiden) wrote2012-11-08 08:10 pm
Entry tags:
Shine 17.8 | Doubt ~ A Dark Place
[Video | Locked from Hana, Eri, and Kamille (hackable: moderate)]
I... um. I have a weird question and I'm pretty sure it's not going to make any sense, but...
[Sora looks amazingly apprehensive today; on the flip side, at least someone seems to have forced her to re-evaluate her self-image. Is that a skirt she's wearing? Her speech is slow and deliberate, as if she's forcing herself to slow down and work through what she's saying. Because she's clearly not wanting to talk about whatever she's going to say. If this weren't so out of character for her, the whole image would be cute.]
...What do you do if you're with someone, and you're close, and they want to get closer, and they're happy it'll be your first time and theirs... but for you... it isn't...
[Oh dear. Someone is insecure about herself again. Her voice is shaking as she talks, and she's speaking faster.]
I just... I don't know what to do. I feel like I shouldn't say anything, but then I'd feel like I'm lying, and I... [She sighs and lets herself lean against the wall of her room, her eyes closed.] I don't want to hurt them. But I can't... not be with them. And I can't just ignore it. It hurts too much already, and I don't think I can look at them right now. No, it's not his fault, before anyone asks. It's mine.
[Her eyes slide open, pained and bitter.] Does love always hurt this much?
( OOC: Daydreams are mostly posts I don't think will get through the main comm [or I tried and they didn't]. They don't necessarily happen, but I'll still happily tag one if anyone wants. )
I... um. I have a weird question and I'm pretty sure it's not going to make any sense, but...
[Sora looks amazingly apprehensive today; on the flip side, at least someone seems to have forced her to re-evaluate her self-image. Is that a skirt she's wearing? Her speech is slow and deliberate, as if she's forcing herself to slow down and work through what she's saying. Because she's clearly not wanting to talk about whatever she's going to say. If this weren't so out of character for her, the whole image would be cute.]
...What do you do if you're with someone, and you're close, and they want to get closer, and they're happy it'll be your first time and theirs... but for you... it isn't...
[Oh dear. Someone is insecure about herself again. Her voice is shaking as she talks, and she's speaking faster.]
I just... I don't know what to do. I feel like I shouldn't say anything, but then I'd feel like I'm lying, and I... [She sighs and lets herself lean against the wall of her room, her eyes closed.] I don't want to hurt them. But I can't... not be with them. And I can't just ignore it. It hurts too much already, and I don't think I can look at them right now. No, it's not his fault, before anyone asks. It's mine.
[Her eyes slide open, pained and bitter.] Does love always hurt this much?
( OOC: Daydreams are mostly posts I don't think will get through the main comm [or I tried and they didn't]. They don't necessarily happen, but I'll still happily tag one if anyone wants. )